Monday, January 23, 2012

Helplessness Blues

13 miles down, 1 million to go
Running has always come easy to me. Even when months had passed since I laced up my shoes, I could head out for a few miles, no problem. There have been days when I've been sick, sore, injured, exhausted, etc. But until yesterday, I had never bonked. It was my most humbling running experience to date. I've never felt so helpless.

Carlsbad Village was hell and I was a passenger on a very slow, hallucinogenic train ride through town for the last few miles of the marathon. I remember a guy giving me a push start from behind and some words of encouragement. I remember drinking a cup of Ultima and accidentally throwing the cup at the legs of a volunteer because I didn't have the energy to direct my throw elsewhere. I remember many cheers from strangers directed my way, kind as they were, that I didn't want to hear. 

I so badly wanted to see the finish line and it seemed so far away. I wanted to see it so bad that I continued to run when I probably should have walked or not moved at all. I was clearly out of fuel, but not much was clear to me at the time except the fact that I wasn't going to Boston.

In shambles after the race, I sat in my car, wife by my side, and spent a full hour recovering. Banana, 8 oz. chocolate milk, 24 oz. Endurox recovery drink, Nature Valley peanut butter granola bar pack, 20 oz. of water. Color finally returned to my face.   

I don't know what left me so depleted. Last year for Marathon No. 1, also Carlsbad, I trained hard and the race felt easy. The last few miles were a challenge, but I held it together. This year I trained harder, felt like I was in better shape and was confident I could shave 5 minutes off my time to reach my new BQ. I consumed more calories (3 gels, 2 salt pills and 30-40 ounces of sports drink) and the weather was cooler. But it just wasn't meant to be.

By the halfway point, although I was on pace, it wasn't as easy as last year. I knew I was at my limit. When I hit the turnaround at mile 18, still on pace, I could feel the race slipping away. I was coming apart at the seams. I started to lose focus. I vaguely remember: Hearing a band playing STP's Wicked Garden, a random cover choice, I thought. Seeing James Li. Hearing a loud cheer from Marat. Seeing Deanna, me giving her the thumbs down and seeing her look of sadness. She felt my pain.

Another roadblock in my quest for Boston. Oh well. I lived to fight another day.




Friday, January 20, 2012

Marathon Beard

San Diego-grown Marathon Beard at Day 93 
A derivative of the Playoff Beard. Origin: National Hockey League. Tradition started by the New York Islanders in the 1980s during their run of four Stanley Cups.

The Marathon Beard starts on Day 1 of training and lasts through the finish line on race day, generally 12-18 weeks of growth. No trimming aside from the cheeks and neckline. No Fu Manchu, Goatee, Soul Patch or any of the like. The Marathon Beard must grow in all its glory. The fuller the beard, the more potent its powers.

Part superstition, part motivational tool, the Marathon Beard, if cultivated properly, is like the best training partner you've ever had. It's a daily reminder that you're in marathon training. When you skip a run, you let the beard down. Need motivation to head out the door for a speed workout? Look in the mirror. The Marathon Beard will not be denied.

Deep into your long training runs and on race day, the Marathon Beard will provide a tasty, functional benefit: Gel Saver. Mint Chocolate flavored Gu might taste better out of the package, but taste doesn't matter at mile 22 when you're low on energy.

You will inevitably be pressured by ladies in your life to shave your Marathon Beard. Pass this test, rebuff these requests and stay on task. Shave the beard and risk marathon failure.

But don't get too attached. Once you cross the finish line, the Marathon Beard must go.